I think the thing that weighs the heaviest through all of this is that I am now the last of my mother’s four children. I’m it. I’ve buried two siblings in my lifetime, but she’s buried three kids in hers. She doesn’t deserve that.
I introduced two of my best friends over video games and now they’re meeting each other in person for the first time this morning AND they’re going to my favorite breakfast restaurant AND I’m not there and I just feel betrayed.
